I won't be staying in the suite. It's too expensive for someone without any work. When I originally took it, I thought I had two movies in December which would have carried me financially to the end of March. Both of them fell through due to financing issues.
So I will stay until the end of January and then I don't know. I am talking to a friend about becoming a room mate. She was planning on doing some renovations so has to figure out if it will work. I hope so. I lived with her this time last year for five months and loved it there. We are very much alike so got along really well. And I felt safe and secure in her house. If it doesn't work out, then back to the idea of living in my van.
Or, the guy I was talking to about sailing with who is on the Sea of Cortez, the one I didn't go with at the beginning of all this... he contacted me a few days ago and wants me to come down and join him on his boat. As cautious as I feel about crewing now, after what happened to me in Florida, it's an option and not an unattractive one at this point. I can't seem to get hired by anyone. I have sent out my resume for at least 100 different positions and gotten nowhere. It's discouraging to the max and I am at the lowest point I've been at since all this started.
I have some stuff unpacked, some stuff still in boxes in the spare room, some stuff sorted to get rid of, and a bunch more stuff in a shed outside. I don't seem to have what it takes to go through it all and decide what to pack to store and keep, what to get rid of, what to use. I can't figure out if I should get rid of furniture. I have nowhere to put it...but it will be so expensive to replace it all one day. I won't get what it's worth. Some of it is irreplaceable. I am frozen with indecision and a lack of any more drive. I have finally run out of steam.
Not sure how much longer I can keep going.
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